[ There's a part of him that wishes that tonight was just like any other night. That you would ask him to stay, that you would be okay with having him stay.
But it's not like any other night. Words have been said, he's hurt you again, and he's not so sure it's a good idea for him to expose you to the fact that he's not alright right now.
So he makes a decision that he's pretty sure he'll regret, but he really ( perhaps, wrongfully ) believes is for the best. For now.
This is him walking over and catching your cheek to lift your face to his. Those are his lips pressing to yours. ] I love you. So much. [ That's him leaving his heart with you for safekeeping because he's too scared that if he turns to you now, when it feels like he needs far too much, he won't be able to stop taking and you don't need that burden on your shoulders.
He's pressing a second kiss to your forehead, and you'll be able to feel the way he's trying hard not to tremble and cry, only to fail to keep his shit together.
He's going to go and take that leave, file all the necessary documents and bench himself. Even if the Hounds haven't been on active duty as a whole blade in a while, it's his responsibility as leader to sit himself down when he's compromised. ]
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But it's not like any other night. Words have been said, he's hurt you again, and he's not so sure it's a good idea for him to expose you to the fact that he's not alright right now.
So he makes a decision that he's pretty sure he'll regret, but he really ( perhaps, wrongfully ) believes is for the best. For now.
This is him walking over and catching your cheek to lift your face to his. Those are his lips pressing to yours. ] I love you. So much. [ That's him leaving his heart with you for safekeeping because he's too scared that if he turns to you now, when it feels like he needs far too much, he won't be able to stop taking and you don't need that burden on your shoulders.
He's pressing a second kiss to your forehead, and you'll be able to feel the way he's trying hard not to tremble and cry, only to fail to keep his shit together.
He's going to go and take that leave, file all the necessary documents and bench himself. Even if the Hounds haven't been on active duty as a whole blade in a while, it's his responsibility as leader to sit himself down when he's compromised. ]
I'll only be a phone call away, okay?